if you asked me to describe these past few days in one word, it would be overwhelmed. overwhelmed with what's come into my life. overwhelmed with God is teaching me. overwhelmed by the support that i have from my friends and family. it's truly overwhelming.
let's get a little background here so you can understand what i'm talking about.
whenever i transition to school from home, or back to home from school, my stomach usually gets a little upset for a day or two and i don't feel good. i usually get nauseous but never get sick. and after the day or two, i'm fine! well, when i came back to school for second semester, i thought i was doing pretty good. i was getting back in to the swing of things and everything seemed to be going great! well, my first sunday back just seemed like an ordinary sunday at college. i went to society sunday school, church, and then had lunch with one of my best friends. that afternoon i decided to make a cup of coffee and do some studying. just like any ordinary sunday. well it was almost time to go to church and all of a sudden i started feeling really sick. i didn't know what was going on. i felt super nauseous. i ended up staying back from church that night. i never ended up getting sick, just felt sick. so this ended up continuing on through this past week. i would eat something, feel sick. start to feel better, try to eat something, feel sick. i was starting to get really frustrated. i was tired. i was loosing a lot of weight. and i was sick of feeling sick. so i talked with my mom and she scheduled an appointment for me with a doctor close to my school.
so friday afternoon, my best friend drove me to the doctors office. i'm gonna be completely honest with you and tell you that i was scared out of my mind. i could've started crying at any minute. and this was my first time at the doctor without my parents so i was terrified that i was somehow gonna mess up on something. (i sound like such a little kid when i say that) so i was called back to the room. they did the basics and then started asking me some questions. once they were done with everything, the doctor looked at me and told me that i had to go in to get blood work done. he said that he honestly did not know what was going on with me. he said my weight loss made him nervous. and that if the test results didn't come back with anything, we were gonna have to take further steps. at this point i was really scared. a doctor just told me he didn't know what was wrong with me. i was freaking out (on the inside) to say the least. i was so scared. he told me the blood tests were to make sure my kidneys and thyroid were working correctly, and to make sure i didn't have cileacs disease. (he said he highly doubted that i have cileacs, but he just wanted to make sure)
i left the doctors office and got in the car with my best friend, and broke down into tears. i was 1,000 miles away from home. i was sick. the doctors didn't know what was going on with me. i was so overwhelmed. she reassured me that God was in control and He was going to take care of me. when i got back to school, i called my parents and let them know what was going on. i was so nervous. i never thought that anything like this would ever happen to me. but God has other plans for my life.
i went and got my blood work done monday morning. through all of this, God has been teaching me that i need to trust in Him more. i like to plan my life the way i think it should go. but really, i need to be giving my life over to God because He already knows what's going to happen. He already knows what my test results are. He already knows what is going to happen. He holds the future in His hands. i don't know about you, but i just think that is AWESOME!
i have been so overwhelmed through the love and support my friends and family have shown me through this. even though they are not all (geographically) close to me, they are all encouraging me, and praying for me. that's another thing. i am overwhelmed with the amount of people who are praying for me. it's crazy! i get texts from people saying they're praying for me, i hear of people who are praying for me, friends on the phone telling me that they're praying for me, i have a family back home who loves me and is praying for me! it's amazing!!! i am truly overwhelmed.
tuesday: i just got a call from the doctors and they said that all my tests results came back and everything looks good. so, i am going to be meeting with a specialist soon to hopefully figure out what is going on. so thankfully, nothing is majorly wrong with my kidney or thyroid, or anything like that! but i will just have to keep on waiting and trusting in God.
here are some pictures that i found on pinterest that are a huge encouragement to me!