but while i am home, i am determined not to just sit around and feel sorry for myself. i want to take this opportunity that God has given me to grow in my faith and grow in my photography. i want to grow closer to God. i know that He put this into my life for a reason. i believe that He has given me this trial in my life to grow me closer to Him. i want to be a better Christian. i also want to get better in photography. i am bound and determined to not just be "another photographer" but to stand out, and make a name for myself in this photography world. i want to excel, and move forward with my business. i want to be able to use the talents and abilities God has given me. i want to grow.
sunset on the drive back home
of course, i can't do any of this on my own. i can't do anything on my own strength. it is virtually impossible. i need to rely on God for this. this is something that God has been showing me. i am the type of person that will try to do everything on my own, and not give it completely up to God. obviously this gets me nowhere. i have really learned this with all my health problems recently. i always need to give everything to Him, and rely on His strength. because if i don't, i will get nowhere.
i just wanted to pour my heart out. i don't want to be a fake. i want to be real with you all. and i invite you to join me on my journey that i am just now starting on. a new chapter in my book. a new part of God's plan for my life. and with God's help, i am determined to succeed.